I am pulled from deep sleep once again at 2am. My mind is whirling and the window above my bed is shaking with the sound of thunder. I silently command the clattering showers to calm and the storm breaks. My Spirit rests quietly while it waits on the prayer I feel rising from the depths of my soul.
It has been several nights now. I am awakened at this hour. I send hopeful messages to others who sit in the dark looking for encouragement. My soul left empty and though it is blessed to send hope, it withers in the dust of its own despair.
The Lord is tapping on my window. Let’s talk here, while it’s quiet. I know you have been struggling. You’re tired, weary and feeling hopeless. I say yes Lord, but I still command the storms to quiet and give me peace to sleep. So why can I not command my own soul to rest in that peace? And why do I call out of my slumber in nightmares grasping at straws when you are already here with me?
The Lord said, I know you think your youth has damaged your blessing to the children you love. I know you think you will never make it and all hope is lost. I know you are able to see me, but are still trying to be strong. I know your heart has changed and you walk with a humble heart but struggle to see the change I see. I know you’re burdened with too much for one to carry.
I woke you up to tell you to lay it down, all of it. Your worries, burdens, hopelessness and weary thoughts. Rest your tired bones in me, just now, in this quiet moment. I wanted to wake you up and tell you. I have seen you struggle. I know you’re tired and I’m preparing the way. I am hosting my angels about you and placing protection all around you. I am healing you of diseases that your sin has brought upon you. I am restoring your strength. You will soar the skies again if you will just trust me. I have made a way for you. But I cannot show it to you right now because I need you to look at me. The storm is clattering. Your faith can quiet the storm. Command it by the hand of the Spirit that lives within you. Quiet the raging waves in your soul and be at Peace with me in this moment.
The sun will rise and you will find a new dawn, a newness to your step and your life. And once again you will be restored, for I have set you up for Glory in me! I have made your paths straight because you have trusted in me. I have cleansed the sin from your blessings because you have rested in me. Now Go, and sin no more. For I am with you. I will never leave you or forsake you. You are mine.
Isaiah 40:30-31
30. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31. but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
KEPT COVENANT 